9 August 2013

Emotional Baggage or Just Emotional

Baggage




Emotional Baggage

Now I have no interest in discussing luggage merely because it is the holiday season.  No, this chapter is about emotional baggage.  This phrase may fill you with horror and you may immediately wish to build up a barrier against anyone you see thus entering into your life because you may view the term similarly to some of the authors shown here on the Urban Dictionary.  Here is an example:  “An issue regarding a person's past that can affect their current disposition: addictions, debt, diseases, bad habits, past relationships (significant other or family), or kids.”  Let us move away from what you may think baggage is and look at the Encarta Dictionary definition: “ideas, beliefs, or practices retained from somebody's previous life experiences, especially insofar as they affect a new situation in which they may be no longer relevant or appropriate”.  What this suggests to me is that there are irrelevant conceptions and behavioural responses to present circumstances.  Certainly nothing to do with the offensive thought that children are baggage. 



Anyone can possibly have some form of emotional baggage at some point in their life.  Is it an automatic weapon waiting to be triggered that will leave chaos in its wake?  Or perhaps it is less dramatic, like a stone in your shoe that needs attention to remove it.  Perhaps the shoe needs repairing so no more stones will cause suffering.  In a previous chapter I showed how fear of becoming wounded emotionally for a second time affected the behaviour of the person in a new relationship.  As in the Encarta Dictionary definition this behaviour was irrelevant to the new relationship.  Further in this chapter you will read a scenario which shows that psychologically, repeated behaviour becomes relevant to the person, for when it becomes conscious that person can then do something about it.

What we can be assured of is that we are the sum of all our life experiences. Some experiences are foisted upon us and we must endure them.  Others we relish, and grieve when they end.  All these experiences are stimuli for our emotions.  Our emotions are then stimuli for our behaviour.  If we experience something which triggers a past emotion (and this can be conscious or subconscious) then it is likely we will go on to repeat the behavioural responses.  This then becomes a pattern.

The Scenario

Consider a nine year old child who has experienced abandonment, in this case we are discussing poor parenting such as emotional neglect.  The boy has little understanding at this tender age but unconsciously learns to fend for himself emotionally.  As an adult he begins to understand the foundation of his childhood was different to the expected norm.  He may or may not be aware he has slowly built a brick wall around himself for protection.  He goes through life seemingly no different from the average male in any given society, experiencing a variety of relationships (intimate, familial, work-related and friendships) and surviving their partings.  Perhaps some of these partings have occurred when people have not fully been allowed into his life.  

Just imagine during one intimate relationship the bricks of his fortress start to fall aside and he begins to truly love his new partner.  This unconditional love has not been experienced since he was a very young boy.  Back then the subjects of his affection were his parents.  The relationship fails to last and his partner walks away.  At some point following the break-up of this relationship, the nine year old MAN consciously connects the abandonment (neglect) with the abandonment (rejection).  He has to grieve for both (remove the stone) before he can move on emotionally, and begin to understand and accept himself for both his qualities and frailties (repair the shoe).  If there has been no connection or he disallows this experience as a catalyst for personal growth, he is likely to rebuild his fortress (and the shoe remains in a state of disrepair).  This man-child may need to learn that he is worthy of love and to begin to love himself.  This is not narcissism but a healthy love for the self which means understanding how the mind and body works, and how negativity and self-neglect can be destructive to both the mental and physical well-being.  It is never too late to build the foundations of oneself that should have been built during childhood.

What this man-child must not do is seek others to “fix” him.  Many of you readers may come across dating profiles which have the overtones of “fix me” such as “seeking one to make me happy”.  Unfortunately we only have the power to fix ourselves, not others.  The greatest help anyone has is the help that is inside of them.  How can we gain access to that help?  Sometimes we may need the assistance of a healthcare professional, or perhaps we have those close to us who can support us with their kindness, compassion or words of wisdom gained from their own experiences during their personal journey.  Other times reflection may hold the key like this man-child making the abandonment connection.  A note of warning - be wary of anyone who wants to fix you as they may have co-dependency issues, a subject already discussed.  
Being spiritual I have to advocate the use of affirmations: positive statements that can have beneficial psychological impacts.  Social networking has become an integral part of modern life and as such it will be a rare person who hasn’t come across illustrated affirmations on-line.  You may be interested in browsing  Kate Spencer’s Facebook page.  Do also consider both modern and ancient philosophical teachers such as the Dalai Lama and Confucius. 


Biologically I omitted something from the chain reaction of experience stimuli > emotional stimuli > behavioural response.  Within that chain our hormones play a huge part.  Therefore the true chain is experience stimuli > hormonal response > emotional stimuli > behavioural response.  Some hormones are excreted during various levels of pleasure such as dopamine and oxytocin and likewise some are excreted during times of stress - cortisol and norepinephrine.


No Baggage Just Emotional

Discussing emotional baggage also nicely leads us onto the times in our lives when hormones affect our emotional state not through external experiences but internal changes.  There are hormones which are released due to an internal (biological) change, such as during adolescence, menstruation, early pregnancy and peri-menopause.  Apart from adolescence the list is gender biased.
 
On approach to adolescence my daughter S hit the proverbial wall of obnoxious behaviour.  I likened it to a permanent case of PMS (pre-menstrual syndrome) with the irritable behaviour, anger and sudden bouts of tears.  Every month for about a year her father and I waited for the onset of menstruation.  When it finally arrived her behaviour settled down and a distinct pattern of monthly PMS began to emerge.  We were happy to have our old daughter back and were able to cope with the couple of angst ridden days a month, and just as importantly so was she.



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A small minority of women do not suffer the symptoms of PMS.  Likewise a small minority of women suffer horrifically. Take a look at the Harvard Medical School site. Read through the common physical and psychological symptoms experienced: from fatigue to pain and from depression to feelings of rejection. So guys when your girlfriend, sister, mother, or female friend is acting up   because of the menstrual cycle fluctuations of the progesterone and oestrogen hormones, hypersensitivity to these fluctuations, or a hormonal imbalance, quickly learn when she needs your support or your silence; and never take her behavioural responses personally.


My own PMS experiences have altered over the years.  For several years I have had one “red rag to a bull” day although sometimes I would cry at a drop of a hat, a week or two before menses occurs.  More recently things have changed.  Amongst the changes is the timing of the PMS, it has gradually moved closer to the start of the bleed until finally coinciding with the bleed.  I suspect peri-menopause is approaching but the GP assures me my greatly increased PMS symptoms are due to the newly replaced Mirena coil contraceptive device.  I am currently trying many different things to ease the symptoms.  Return to this site for guidance regarding dietary intake, exercise, supplementation and prescription medication.

Red For Danger

It is important to remember that it is never a choice to suffer mood swings and the resulting behavioural responses, which are fortunately temporary.  My advice to hormonal girls is to duck out of dating during these times.  Let a guy get to know the real you, otherwise his opinion of you will be coloured and that colour will be red!  My advice to guys is to temper whatever communication you give to a relatively new date who is hormonal: temper criticism or judgement with kindness (and grit those teeth).


On A Lighter Note




21 January 2013

Navigational Advice


Navigational Advice
Due to the nature of Blogs, the last entry made is the first seen.  At the right of this Blog, if using a pc you will see the Archive.  Click on the arrow next to 2012 and then "March" to present that months' list, and then April's etc.  Then proceed through the chapters as you would a book.  Click on each to take you to that page.  Alternatively click on a title which takes your fancy.

28 October 2012

Relationship must haves. Part One Chemistry and Timing



Earlier in my Blog I intimated a relationship has three major requirements for success and longevity: chemistry, compatibility and timing.  


CHEMISTRY


Does the first, chemistry, need an introduction?  It is a term banded about on dating sites and between members, and for some people remains elusive.  Well let us go with what we know: we see a person to whom we are attracted.  The most obvious point of attraction is that we find their physical appearance attractive and this pleases us; in fact this information goes to our brain and triggers our pleasure signals.  Biologically we have undergone a release of hormones within our brain.  The chemical reaction has begun.  More often than not due to internet dating, this begins with a photograph; and this reaction goes to prove that looks are a very important aspect of attraction.  So, for those people who scream that taking looks into account is shallow, my advice is to stop fighting something that is perfectly natural.

Oh so many pics to choose from
We humans share these biological drives, these hormones which are released due to the sensory information, with our animal compatriots.  Procreation is the nature of the beast, so-to-speak.  In Bad Boys we saw the peacock attempting to seduce the peahen in a lavish visual display as part of his courtship; likewise birds sing to attract mates.  The chemical reaction may begin with one sense but is short-lived if other senses are not stimulating further chemical releases.  I am more than happy to state Johnny Depp’s face pleases me, and also that his accent warms the cockles of my heart (or perhaps another part of the body).  One sense may even overthrow the pleasure signals received from another, for example you may be attracted to a Marilyn Monroe look-alike blind-date but if you have an affinity for a subtle foreign accent and the woman opens her mouth and utters greetings like an Essex girl on speed, I would advise you not to cast lots on a relationship ensuing.

In humans we are aware that these drives have an individualised focus.  I have already touched upon visual attraction: we have universal beauty explained by the golden proportion and also my suggestion of personal facial geometry (in Be True To Yourself).  It kind of implies one man’s poison is another man’s elixir.  In the above paragraph, the example clearly shows what we hear has its importance also.  Following from that, what about smells?  There won’t be many adults in the land who haven’t heard of the word pheromones, for we are looking, or rather smelling beyond soap, shampoo and Eau de the-latest-celebrity-pong.  As a woman I am aware my pheromones alter throughout my menstrual cycle and I know they are more seductive during ovulation (and as a writer that is a pleasant way of stating that I smell stronger, in a good way, prior to menstruation).  As for you sweaty men instigating the odd whiffy attraction perhaps you should take a peak here so that you are not tempted to go overboard in the stale odour stakes.

Before leaving the subject of the use of our senses in relation to chemistry, I would like to share this article.  It would appear male rodents are using song to attract mates and these songs start when the rodents come up against the pheromones in the urine of females.  So Ladies, the next time you’re tempted to urinate in the great outdoors because you cannot reach the lavatory in time, you may find some strange guy comes up to you and starts serenading you.



TIMING

I shall bypass compatibility temporarily and jump straight to timing.  In our lifetime we may meet up with a person with whom each sense is fully sated.  In other words we each receive a glut of signals which in turn releases chemicals and a strong desire to copulate.  Throw compatibility into the mix and this relationship becomes more than just an instinctual desire to fuck or make love.  Unfortunately if the timing is poor then the potential for one of us walking off into the distance is high and possibly leaving devastation in our wake.

Timing is a concept that is often only recognised with regards to relationships, in its negative context.  Poor timing brings about the impairment of the ability to fully connect with another person in a deep and meaningful way due to some past or present event(s), such as the loss of a significant relationship, resulting in emotional turmoil in one’s life.  Other stresses and losses may compound this. - Michelle

The easiest way of showing the importance of poor timing is to give an example.  Imagine the scenario of two people in love.  The sex is spectacular, there are no body image issues between the pair and not only are they happy to wake up and find themselves occasionally snuggled into the other’s armpit, morning breath does not pose a problem.  The chemistry box is well and truly ticked.  We now move onto the couple’s compatibility.  Their level of intelligence is similar even though life may have taken them on totally different routes, and they also have a similar sense of humour.  These two are open-minded and liberal so no presence of political, racial or religious bigotry on either side will upset the apple cart, and both are eager to learn from the other.  As for personalities, these are either immediately compatible or have the potential to achieve compatibility.  Another box ticked.  So where is the problem? 

On the face of it there doesn’t appear to be one.  Then you see something starts to sneak between the two.  That something is fear.  The fear that something might or might not happen, and that fear is directly related to a past event.  The event is a relationship breakdown and acrimonious divorce.  Fear is not always tangible nor does it have to be conscious, so how can one deal with it?  If we have a phobia such as arachnophobia then we may choose avoidance by refusing to go into the arachnid and reptilian house at the zoo, or we may choose removal by asking another person to get rid of that huge monster of a spider which has just run across the lounge carpet (or the vacuum cleaner comes in mighty handy if there is no hero or heroine around).  Similarly, if we fear getting hurt emotionally because our last significant relationship caused immense emotional pain, do we choose avoidance (now a little difficult having found ourselves in the midst of a new significant relationship, which is the very reason for the fear arising) or do we rid ourselves of that relationship?  Would that not in itself produce hurt?  Or could we reduce emotional entanglement?

The latter is chosen on a subconscious level.  Let us suppose it is the female on the receiving end of her partner’s fear, her own behaviour is very likely to be affected.  One minute the couple is connecting on a very deep level and she feels secure, but the next, the barriers are up and her lover is psychologically pushing her away or holding her at arms’ length.  Her behaviour may in turn mirror his as she now tries to protect herself from the arising fear SHE may get hurt.  Alternatively or additionally she may behave in a way she feels is protecting her lover and suppresses her own feelings, her own insecurities.  Her change in behaviour directly affects his and this increases his barriers.  Neither of the two are consciously breaking down the barriers and one of these two (if not both) is going to walk away and take that fear (or suppressed fear) into the next significant relationship. 

The saddest thing is that the potential for repairing this issue, for removing this fear, was high in this relationship.  As we go onto Part Two of Relationship Must Haves keep “the potential to repair” in mind as we now turn our attention to the subject of compatibility.

5 August 2012

Bibiliography



BIBLIOGRAPHY


Books

Jung, The Key Ideas - Ruth Snowdon

I have been interested in psychology since before I began working for the good ol' NHS, and started my studies in an introduction to it 14-15 years ago (likewise sociology a year later).  For some undefined reason Carl Jung and I have never crossed paths until recently (not bad for a dead person).  Well I want to rave about this fascinating man for his ideas have created such a deep resonance in me due to my present spiritual journey and long-standing psychological interest.  Like most of us, I want to become the best person I can be, which involves my conscious and unconscious to walk hand in hand (ego and higher self, though Jung would state Self with the all-important capital S), and likewise to balance both the male and female aspects of myself, such as my logical rationale and emotional intuition.  Jung would class this as the individuation process and Buddhists would class this as the journey towards enlightenment.  Are labels necessary?  They are actually useful as a tool for comprehension rather than an authoritative definition.

So what does this book have to do with dating?  Did I say it did?  Actually it does and I'll quote directly from the last chapter, which I read today (18/4/12): "Jung argues that we cannot hope to relate well to others until we can see ourselves clearly... 'Relationship to the Self is at once relationship to our fellow man, and no-one can be related to the latter until he is related to himself.'" p177 Jung the visionary.



The Everything Hinduism Book - K Shouler, Ph.D., & S Anthony

At the end of 2011 I purchased a set of books giving an overview of the world's major religions.  Hinduism struck a chord with me due to how life has shaped, and continues to shape my belief system.  It left me wanting to know more.  I decided to read, not only to aid my own  journey in the search of enlightenment, but also with a view of seeking information that could benefit a Dater.   




Sexually, I'm more of of a Switzerland - David

A light-hearted look, due to actual personal ads, within the lonely hearts scene: a column of the London Review of Books.  If you have ever giggled at peoples' profiles on Internet Dating, it might be worth you taking a peek.  An on-line review.  The ads are annotated by the editor David Rose to remove the obliqueness of some of the highbrow content.  One such annotation regarding a certain train service had me in stitches for I cannot recall elsewhere in the book where a comment had such an underlying subjectiveness (with a direct comparison to faecal matter).

The most memorable content of any profile I have perused, and one which has been repeated, is the following:  "Intelligent man with a good sense of humour, likes blah blah blah, seeks same".  Misplaced under male seeks female perhaps?

You Kant Make It Up! - Gary Hayden.


In this book: You Kant Make It Up! Strange Ideas From History's Great Philosophers, Gary Hayden states this: philosophy concerns itself with ultimate questions.  So if you have ever perused such ideas as: "Why are we here?"; "Is there a God?"; and, "Is reality as we perceive it, real?", then you are embarking on the cornerstones of philosophy.  Gary recommends many books and I am following up a couple of his recommendations to give me a better understanding of both Eastern and Western philosophical ideas. 





Internet Articles

Codependency
The first time I heard this term was after the break-up of my relationship with F, so it would have been two-and-a-half years ago.  It was shocking to research a term and find I already "had the t-shirt".  Both S, my male friend, and I were in a place of pain and he shared this website with me to help.  Those of you not ready for information with a spiritual leaning may prefer an alternative link such as this counselling service.

I recognised myself in this paragraph from the above counselling site:
"Codependency causes us to become "enmeshed" within relationships, friendships, our jobs and roles and is accompanied by an exhausting tendency to want to "fix" people and things and to then be fixed. We become "rescuers" and "martyrs" and then directly or indirectly demand some kind of reward for our efforts. We become trapped by our need to be needed."  

Perhaps the above seems harsh but replace "demand for reward" for the ego's need for validation as it can be difficult to acknowledge a dysfunction, however mild or severe, acute or chronic it is; but when one does, one grows from that knowledge.  The following communication gives examples of the types of validation we seek, I sent it to one I love:
"The ego wants validation of being loved and expects it the way it wants it, according to your life experiences and needs.  The higher self does not need the love of others and therefore does not have that issue.  Try to look at validation (praise/confirmation of love/affirmation of being right) as a bonus to make you smile rather than see it (unconsciously perhaps) as a necessity."  The lesson was introduced as a concept by the above spiritual website but life's experience has only recently integrated this lesson into my life and I feel much healthier for it.  Consider it as a protection against manipulation - both the dealing of and receiving of it.


Golden Proportion 
Also known as Golden Ratio/Section/Mean, Divine Proportion and Golden Number Phi.  As I am writing this I am looking at this site: www.goldennumber.net.  The reason I have chosen to link this particular page is to direct you to scroll to the list of wherphi appears.  It is apparent in the Universe, occurring naturally in human bodies, animals, nature, the solar system, sciences and in mankind creations of art, music, books and architecture.  Interestingly phi is used in facial plastic surgery.  So the secret is out, there is a universal formula to what attracts us.  In my Blog I extended this idea of the Golden Proportion to a personal facial geometry.  The idea is simple: where our faces deviate from the Golden Proportion we are drawn to those who reflect the same deviations.


Namaste
This is a new term to me and is the most beautiful of salutations I have yet come across.  I state it in response to one of the anonymous comments.  It is a literal translation of the Sanskrit word means I bow to you.  Gandhi is reputed to have defined it in a letter of response to Einstein as "I honour the place in you where the entire universe resides. I honour the place in you of light, love, truth, peace and wisdom. I honour the place in you where, when you are in that place, and I am in that place, there is only one of us."





18 July 2012

Profile Howlers and Wowsers

Intentional Humour?

Your public awaits you and your almost perfect profile is ready to be unleashed, or is it?  Surely you would not compose and send off a Curriculum Vitae to a potential employer without checking it?  Well pay the same sort attention to detail on your profile and make sure your public is laughing WITH you as opposed to at you!


The moral of this chapter is to be aware of how your profile reads!  Sometimes it is simply incorrect punctuation which causes the howlers (and sometimes it is the reader's wicked imagination of which you have no control).


E from Cambridgeshire:
I am just as happy to stay in hold hands and watch TV. 
I imagine E is trying to imply he is tactile as opposed to actually sitting at home clasping his hands as he watches the television alone.



M from Huntingdon
Have a car: N/A
Am financially stable, got my own place, car and all the other trappings. 
Something does not quite match up.




L from Oxfordshire:
I'm looking for Mrs Right to share these things with.
I imagine L would like to meet a singleton and make her his Mrs as opposed to stealing another man's wife.
Likewise - D from Bishop's Stortford.



E from Essex
Looking for a sexy smile and good times together.
My sexy smile and I always have good times together... don't yours?



N from Spalding
Enjoy a good night out but equally as happy having a night in with a bottle of wine and quality time together.
I cannot imagine that N's intention is actually to have quality time with his bottle of wine.




R from Essex
I'm more of a comfortable traveller but I have been known to camp!
This is purely my twisted mind for I have images of John Inman.

L from Northamptonshire
Northants guy with own house and no ties seeks funny normal pretty lady for fun and friendship.
The picture of the guy does indeed show him without a tie... not sure he meant that though.

D from Milton Keynes
Just so I conform I like eating out real English beer motorbikes.
Is that a motorbike made from beer, and how does one eat it or perhaps out of it?


M from Bourne
I don't need to drink heavily to have a good time - most of the time I'm driving so stick to coke and orange juice.
Is coke and orange juice a good mix?  I can imagine the colour is gross.

N from Stofold
Dislikes- Marrow, what is the point of this vegetable?
Marrow has a point? No wonder he doesn't like it.




K from Luton
Looking for my Yin Yang
Is that the same as asking for a threesome or a he-she?



M from Bedford
I bring good things to a relationship
I wonder if that is like a dowry.  Certainly intriguing.


F from Pakistan
Status: not single, not looking
Intent: Dating!


H from Northampton
Profession: Proffesional
I liken this error to the self-professed "inteligent" person (AND I am ignoring the fact that a professional, unless you're Bodie or Doyle, is not a profession). 




J from Peterborough
Like eating out country side the beach love cliff tops walks.
That is such an unusual diet (oh it's lacking punctuation silly me).



B from Ely
Take her down are local for a slap up fish and chip meal.
There the danger lies spelling words how you pronounce them. 

C from Milton Keynes
Enjoys most things in life as lif is too short.
That typo or Freudian slip is rather humorous.






Photographic Faux Pas





N from Herts
Status: single 
Photo: with wedding ring!












H from Leamington Spa
Status: blond Caucasian
Photo: bald!
Hair colour for the mature male is often inaccurate.  Photos blatantly show salt and pepper or grey, not black/brown/blond.






S from Peterborough
Status: non-smoker
Photo: cigarette in hand!






S from Peterborough
Photo: of two men
No other pictures, so who is S?


Ladies from anywhere
Average body type
Photo: women's view of average seems to range from a size 10 to a size 20.  According to this article the average dress size in Britain is a size 16.  According to this article it was a size 14 in the year 2000 and a 12 a decade earlier.


Anyone from anywhere
The fun-seeking and cheerful members whose photos depict the opposite.


Other Surprises

B from Hertford
48
I am looking to start my own family
As a mother of five I am pretty maternal, even to this day.  My age, however, dictates my biological clock has run out (due to risks to a potential embryo/foetus).  Now this gentleman is one of a growing trend: already past middle-aged and wanting to start or extend a family.  If he sires with a younger woman the risk fore-mentioned is much less or negligible.  This makes him far more fortunate than a woman of his own age group, but surely other factors need to be taken into consideration, such as age and health?  Consider the father's age as the child grows up.  Chances are he will live to a ripe old age since demographically we are becoming a nation top heavy with elderly people, but will B still have reasonable health and how comparable will he be to other fathers of twenty to thirty years his junior?  A trite example perhaps, but would he be able to play football with his son in his teens, when he is in his sixties?  B will be a pensioner before he could take his child for her first legal drink.
B from Luton
49
Wants to extend his family


A from Coventry
Looking for real love. Someone I can call my mum, my soulmate, my sister and my lover
Okay is it me, or is this scary?  Can we just stick with the 'best friends' comments rather then include female relatives?

Markymark from anywhere
Is an extremely frequent user name.

N from Luton
My colleges at work say I am good looking kind caring and good fun,so who am i to disagree...?
I imagine N is not referring to those institutions for higher education, but in fact his colleagues.  I later found out his 12 year old daughter composed his profile.  N had her correct it when the error was pointed out.  I was later horrified to learn she may have communicated with a potential datee or two.  


Profile Wisdom 

E from King's Lynn
Sorry ladies, no pics, no can do! I just do not understand why so many women on here don't have a picture of themselves unless they have something to hide maybe??? If we are all honest deep down, it starts with the picture first, and then if you are not completely repulsed, then we read the profile to get to know a bit more. Don't shoot the messenger :) Just telling it as it is...

J from Nottingham
Why is it that people put as there main profile pictures where: 
They don't smile
Group photos
Distance shots
Pictures of animals!!!


M from Cambridge
Please accept my apologies if I don't reply, I do appreciate any message, but I don't wish to confuse or to 'lead on' in any way, so feel it best to just keep it simple by being silent rather than getting into a series of polite replies...anyway thanks and good luck. 


C from New York
PHYSICAL ATTRACTION & COMPATIBLITY are key for me – As it should be with everyone I hope.
I read all messages that are sent to me and read the sender's profile.
If I don't respond it is because I do not believe I am a match for one of those two reasons listed previously.